Annie Gets Fit

inside is healthy. outside is about to be.

Rescued on an elliptical.

I’ve had a tough week.

Truthfully, the toughest so far.

It’s not that I wanted to quit- that’s not really an option. It’s just that outside influences and inside hurts had my guard down.

Where, in the last 10 weeks, I had learned to say no to desserts, I gave in and had one of the most delicious cupcakes in the world [white chocolate cranberry- can you blame me?] and M&Ms. AT THE SAME MEAL.

I also felt myself falling back into the old pattern of not making space in my day for exercise. It is deeply true that I am really busy right now. A lot of my jobs amp up in April and I have been working 12-14 hours days. Seriously.

But I should still find time. I just should. That’s how healthy Annie wants to live.

So it was just a hard few days.

Until Tuesday night. Tuesday night I set aside specific time, said no to social events, and went to the gym. The first twenty minutes on the elliptical were a nightmare- I just kept thinking, “if I get off now, I can have time to do blah blah blah” fill in the blank with the 100 other things that could have been done during that time.

But my mind is getting stronger. So I didn’t get off. I stayed on the elliptical.

And something changed. Something changed in my heart. Something heavy dropped off. Something old went away. And that thing that had been killing my motivation, killing my vibe, killing my desire to really be a better Annie- suddenly it was gone.

I think days, maybe even weeks, like this could happen again. It’s the way life works. But this is just the first time that this has happened during the competition. It was hard. It was actually awful. But I survived it. I didn’t quit. I ate a cupcake and M&Ms.

But I didn’t quit.

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April 16, 2010 - Posted by | Uncategorized

4 Comments »

  1. Yay, Annie!! That is a HUGE victory!

    Comment by erin | April 16, 2010 | Reply

  2. Thank you for the encouragement because I struggle in the exact same way. Yesterday I ate M&M’s, pizza, AND greasy potato chips…but then I got on the elliptical for longer than I ever have and I felt amazing after that gluttonous guilt. 🙂

    Comment by LyTysha | April 18, 2010 | Reply

  3. Annie–you are doing great. You pushed through a really hard time, and came out on the other side more determined and a little “lighter” (both physically AND emotionally). It’s SO SO hard to make time for ourselves, but also SO SO important. But I hate you’ve been working 12-14 hour days. Goodness.

    Hang in there and know it’s okay to eat M&M’s and cupcakes. You want this change to be sustainable, and life without dessert simply isn’t! : )

    Comment by Andrea | April 19, 2010 | Reply

  4. It is a big thing to let yourself off the hook and just keep walking. Always makes me think of Dorie in Saving Nemo. :O) What do we do?
    Just keep swimming.
    I think life is rarely about big victories and more about the smaller victories of picking yourself up after falling.
    Good for you!!!
    -Gina

    Comment by Gina | April 19, 2010 | Reply


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